Since the moment I met the Lord, I mean really met him and felt his unending grace in my life, the only thing that really wanted to do was serve him. It is a strange phenomenon. Its like everything else just sort of fell by the wayside. No longer do I feel a drive to chase after what I once did, but I have a desire to just be in his presence and I feel that most securely when I am serving. No doubt, I stumble and no doubt, my own selfishness occasionally gets in the way, but within the bigger picture of my life, is this craving and need to serve my God and fellowship with him.
Now let me be clear, the service that I am called to do is not always what I would choose. As a husband and father it is my calling to support and love my family, to lead them with integrity and love them unconditionally. I love this calling but sometimes I wish I could do the “supporting” part in a way that I enjoyed more than I do under my current circumstances. But nonetheless, I know that in taking care of my awesome family, in the position that I have been provided, I am participating in an act of worship that pleases God and that is within his perfect plans for my life.
We are all called to serve. A quick glance through scripture is evidence of this fact. Throughout the bible men and women are called by God to do great things. Never is this calling easy or small. God challenges his people to to take on enormous challenges that seem out of the question to everyone involved until they follow by faith, and are blessed to see Gods mighty hand at work on their behalf. Never is there a time when God lays out the whole plan and all the obstacles involved in that plan right from the beginning. More often there is just a prompting, a little push from the Holy Spirit to move in a certain direction. When people listen and move, awesome things take shape.
Listening and moving are the keywords. Can I shut up long enough and listen for Gods prompting? When I finally do hear it, can I have the faith and courage needed to move? These are the challenges I face all the time. I want nothing more than to serve and yet it is so hard to just listen and move. What a conundrum!
I believe you can tell a lot about a mans faith by the fruit of this simple question. Is he hearing Gods promptings and is he moving to fulfill his purpose? I pray that this fruit would be seen in my life and I thank God for his never-ending grace for the times that it is not. I pray that my heart would be always in a state of flux, always changing, as God chips away at the callousness of my nature.
“Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”” – Isaiah 6:8