Searching For Wisdom

Today I want to talk about something personal. Really, it’s more like an extended series of questions than anything. A search for wisdom, if you will.
From almost the moment of my salvation the Lord has set on my heart the desire to both serve His kingdom as well as share the Gospel. I knew very deep in my heart, right away, that I must chase after His mission and to the best of my ability that’s what I’ve done. I’ve been extraordinarily blessed in my pursuit so far. From leading the Granger Community Church prison ministry, to serving friends and acquaintances, and a variety of other things locally and globally, God has opened doors to allow my family and I to serve him successfully. I could not be more thankful for the ability to serve my Lord and Savior.
The questions come when it comes to how much is too much, and is there such a thing? In a perfect world, I would be ecstatic to be able to serve and love everyday, all day. In reality, life gets in the way. I have an awesome wife and five beautiful children that I support by being away up to one-hundred hours a week working as a locomotive engineer. This job is all I’ve ever known how to do and has been such a huge blessing to us. A large family like ours requires a lot of resources to stay afloat and while we have struggled at times, we have also been “crazy”, “only God”, “miracle”, “take-your-breath-away” blessed. That being said, I am gone a lot, I am on call and never have a set schedule, and if I do miss work (which I have to more often than not) to serve, it takes a big chunk out of an already tight budget.
As more and more opportunities arise to be a part of “the mission”, we have all sacrificed as a family to remain involved and engaged. The sacrifice is not the issue. We all know and/or are learning that working on the side of Christ is not an easy task and we are called to sacrifice for His glory.
My family has been so awesome in this regard! They wait for necessities like shoes and clothes, miss trips and events, live on a tighter than we would like grocery budget, wait and wait on extracurricular stuff like karate or gymnastics, and on and on with little to no complaints.
I don’t want to deprive them but often times I do, and I feel guilty. I want to serve more, but I can’t unless we continue to sacrifice. I want to be radically generous, (which I guess we are when it comes to time) but that requires working more, serving less.
Scripture calls for men to lead, husbands to love, fathers to teach and provide. I am growing in each of these things daily, they are being accomplished. I want to honor God in all that I do, not to impress or satisfy him, but to live the life he calls us to.
How does that work? What does that look like? Where is the line that we don’t cross in our pursuit of mission and family? Nobody is going entirely without, but with what they are doing, is that wrong of me to ask them? Are our sacrifices stupid “first world” sacrifices that are hardly a sacrifice at all? Should we further tighten the budget and eliminate more comforts?

Wisdom, questions, and answers can be placed in the comment section following this post or I can be contacted through the “feedback” tab at the top of the page.

2 responses to “Searching For Wisdom

  1. The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding [ prov. 9:10 ].
    What is wisdom? Wisdom is not a thing it is a person. But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God [1 cor 1: 30] Jesus became wisdom for us who are saved, so when we see the word wisdom in Gods word we can put the name Jesus there [ Dr J. Vernon McGee ].
    The fear of the Lord is to live in harmony in tune whith what Jesus says to do. Jesus can and does speak to us both thu his word the logos [written word] and the ramah [spoken word] [john 1;14] and [mat 2:18].
    Those of us who fear the Lord are careful to obey His word.
    We are to listen to what God is saying to us and obey Him. But fools despise wisdom and instruction [prov 1:7].We who believe are to live by the word of God and obey Him if we want to be successful. But whoever keeps His word, truly the love of God is perfected [ mature] in Him [ 1 john2:5 ].
    I know all this sounds complicated but the bottom line is obey what Jesus is telling you to do and not what religion or tradition or man says you should do.
    Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word [ rhema] [ strong’s #4487 : That which is said or spoken] that proceeds out from the mouth of God [ mt 4:4 ].
    Can we hear from God? Yes we can. Just ask him! I know to some this would sound impossible but whith God all things are possible. Can God take ordinary men and make them great? Then he said to them, follow Me and I will make you fishers of men [ mt 4: 19 ]. They immediatley left their nets and followed Him [ vs 20 ]. These are the men who brought the Gospel to us. The gospel was handed down to us by men who obeyed the [rhema] word of Jesus.
    Josh you are an example of a great man of God to us who work on the rail road. You and Vick Vida are the two men that are changing lives the most out here .
    I hope they go to the place where you got it Jesus [ wisdom].

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